I guess I'm getting used to the fact that I don't have to get up at 5 something every day in order to be somewhere. That somewhere where I have to be on my toes, on my A game every moment for 3 periods a day.I'm not staying after school to straighten things out or bringing work home with me. I'm not losing sleep to wonder what else I can do to get the concept through to so and so or that one that sits in the back or the one who would rather sleep or the one who really is trying but for whatever I try it won't just click into place.
Instead I am developing resources for teachers to use next year. I'm playing computer. I'm reading. I make my own coffee in the morning. I play with the dogs and sleep in and watch Dr. Who or Food Network. I shop online and create jewelry. I experience brief moments of boredom and then I sink into them and enjoy them for the quiet moments of nothing that they are. I cook and don't clean and sometimes I think I might even get through some of my Blockbuster queue (which, if you have any suggestions, send them my way). I've been drinking more water and I might actually get to the gym today. I don't get through much on my list each day, but enough to make me happy and enough to know that it's ok if I don't. I have tomorrow. And I have tomorrow for the next handful of weeks. And this is my summer.